I often feel like the little guy peering around the guy who is out in front ready to meet the world head on. I want to be the one in front, but am a bit too fearful of what is out there and if I can really handle it. I am more of a wall flower, preferring to stay in the background if I can help it. I like to paint, but I don’t like to promote my work in a personal way – like an art show or craft fair. I feel like such a weenie when it comes to face-to-face contact. I am unsure and embarrassed. I don’t quite believe in myself. This is true not only in the art world but in the real world as well and it frustrates me to no end. I want to be the one out there enjoying life to the fullest, but that little fear holds me back. And I know that later in life I will regret not doing more now. How can I get further if I don’t believe in myself? What would it take for me to believe in myself? Maybe I need a push from the big guy out in front. Then I can face the world head on because I know he would be right behind me. Then after I awhile, I would be comfortable being the one out in front and I would have the opportunity to give the little guy hiding behind me a nudge. I would like that.

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